Just a welcome

So...Why am I writing? I've never in my life kept a diary, not even when I was 8 or 9 or 10 years old. The reason that I am writing right now is becaouse I am in so much pain. I ache and there is no one here I can talk to, so I figured just one step before going completely insane I might as well gine this a shot. It might be some kind of psycotherapy for me. I don't know....